His Last Wish Made Me Reconsider My Life
For the first time in my life I’ve lost someone I dearly loved. This happend to me in my mid-twenties. You can imagine it was devastating, first losing someone for the first time in my life and secondly that being someone I cared a lot about. Let me be clear, of course there has been times I heard my relatives say that someone passed away who was related or close. But I’ve never really known them or maybe just saw them once or twice in my life. It never really had a big impact on me.
Until I lost that particular person in my life, whom I’ve known since I was a little kid. It broke me, I never felt something so deeply and painful. I actually don’t know if it would be easier if I had lost someone in an earlier stage of my life. What I do know is that his loss gave me a wake-up call. It made me realize sincerely how important it is to live and to do what I love and more important take nothing for granted.
There is one particular memory, which made me realize life is actually short and the most simple things in life shouldn’t be taken for granted. I remember sitting next to him, it was one of his last days, and asked him if he was in pain. He told me he wasn’t, but then he said something which made me tear up. He said he just craved all kinds of food, and how badly he wanted to consume it. But he just couldn’t find the energy nor appetite to eat. Thats all he wanted.
I just couldn’t get my mind to it, this person was going to die in a couple of days and all he wanted was something so simple and something we can generally do so easily. This made reconsider my priorities and choices I made. I just kept thinking that if this could be a dying man’s wish, what am I worrying about and am I living the life I really wanted to?
Don’t get me wrong, obviously there are things to worry about and often we cannot control if we worry about something or not. And I’m not saying that because x happens someone else can’t have it worse. I just want to make clear that often we worry about things in life we actually can do something about. And more often then not we are not living our life to the fullest. We keep waiting for things to change magically. We keep delaying living life waiting for the next occurrence or a sign.
Sometimes we keep having a person in our life because we feel too bad for them otherwise. Or we say yes to things, even thought we don’t want to, just to make someone else happy. Or we don’t want to use that new overpriced perfume because there will be an even more special day to use it. There is just not enough time to keep doubting and putting things off. We get this life once, so we should make it a good one.
Nothing will change in one day, just don’t take anything for granted. Anything can stop at any particular moment. Try to make it a good day and do your best, because that’s al you can do sometimes.
And if you were waiting for a sign, this is it.
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